______ avec amour

at last... dear chase

2006-09-10T11:57:00.000+08:00

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and she is turning blue black

skips around in joy

switch it on

2006-09-09T11:30:00.000+08:00

ok maybe i should start updating again.

i feel like it.

2006-08-05T04:09:00.000+08:00

Terhenti lamunan bila ku dikejutkan
Engkau dipimpin pergi oleh seseorang
Dalam keterpaksaan kau melangkah kaki
Namun sempat jua kau menoleh ku disini

you know, sometimes when your bunkmates sing malay oldies a.k.a jiwang songs

and suddenly out of nowhere, a particular song just pops up in your head without any reason but triggers memories and flashbacks?

this is one of them.

for the benefit of those non-malay speaking people out there:

The scene stops when i wake up
You were taken away by someone else
Reluctantly you walk away
But you still had the time to look at me here

(this is as accurate as i can get)

2006-06-10T01:52:00.000+08:00

i'm worse than a pussy.

freak of nature?

you tell me.

nouvelle vague

2006-06-05T16:36:00.000+08:00

In a Manner of speaking
I just want to say
That I could never forget the way
You told me everything
By saying nothing

In a manner of speaking
I don't understand
How love in silence becomes reprimand
But the way that i feel about you
Is beyond words

Oh give me the words
Give me the words
That tell me nothing
Ohohohoh give me the words
Give me the words
That tell me everything

In a manner of speaking
Semantics won't do
In this life that we live we only make do
And the way that we feel
Might have to be sacrified

So in a manner of speaking
I just want to say
That just like you I should find a way
To tell you everything
By saying nothing.

Oh give me the words
Give me the words
That tell me nothing
Ohohohoh give me the words
Give me the words
That tell me everything

- in a manner of speaking, nouvelle vague

Only A Dream

2006-05-17T01:42:00.000+08:00

I GOT A SECOND BIKE AND I NAMED HER 'CHASE'.

I payed for the insurance which was $8.00.

The bike cost me 20 cents (after some bargaining).

and then i woke up.

Addicted to riding

2006-05-12T12:58:00.000+08:00

You know your addicted to riding a motorcycle when...

1) You drive a car and turn off the signal indicator manually after making a turn
2) You get into the car and look for the side stand
3) You look at every bike that passes by, regardless a "chio bu" or chimpanzee that's riding the bike
4) You somehow justify that it's still cheaper than taking the bus even though petrol prices have skyrocketed.
5) You drive a car and wonder how come the steering wheel looks so much smaller than the last time you handled it
6) You go into a bookshop and look for motorcycling magazines 1st
7) You christen your bike a name
8) Lim Ah Boy becomes your 2nd home
9) as you are falling from a skid, you still have time to think, "Oh no, not again...."
10) you change the tyres like changing underwear
11) 'www.singaporebikes.com' is your home page

And lastly, when you turn into a corner in you car like this:

2006-04-27T13:31:00.000+08:00

do not say it for the sake of 'just to-s'.

bad boys, good girls.
bad boys, good girls.
bad boys, good girls.
bad boys, good girls.
bad boys, good girls.

keep telling yourself that and nothing will change.

Pre-sale tickets

2006-04-23T12:55:00.000+08:00

Pre-sale tickets are sold at $3 each. so If anybody would like them, call or sms me at 96791624. My name is dzool and your name is not. I have 7 left so hurry while stocks last.

Each sold separately.

SCDF

2006-04-08T15:47:00.000+08:00

"Dear Enlistees,

I am pleased to note that you have been selected to serve your FUll-Time National Service in the Singapore Civil Defence Force."

DAMN

bolin

2006-03-27T12:42:00.000+08:00

i hardly do talk about him. afterall, there's nothing to really. the last time i saw him was when i was still in the pram-teaching-you-how-to-walk thing.

and how i did recognise him at the station was somthing that even i couldn't comprehend. i guess its what people call 'brotherly instinct'.

had a nice short talk. yes. short but nice.

damn you people who get to see your siblings everyday.

will it happen?

2006-03-19T13:38:00.000+08:00

oh dear, please do make the 30 of 4 a reality.
work on the timing.

"this could be my chance to break out
this could be my chance to say goodbye
at last it's finally over "

sleep now

2006-03-18T10:34:00.000+08:00

put your gun in another direction now that you've cried yourself to sleep.

change is good

2006-03-16T12:09:00.000+08:00

change is good

before

during

after

the academy is...

2006-03-15T12:31:00.000+08:00

when they review the debut, what if the critics hate you.

don't worry cause they might just catch somebody off their feet. well, they can love it or leave it or rip it apart. we're living while we're singing so i guess that's a step in the right direction

clever composition in the honesty.

for nut

2006-03-07T15:18:00.000+08:00

i guess its ok you trapped yourself in your own way.

got over me yet?

2006-03-06T22:20:00.000+08:00

its about time it became a whole number

2006-03-03T11:54:00.000+08:00

8 days to tango

2006-02-28T23:23:00.000+08:00

11 days to tango

2006-02-28T23:13:00.000+08:00

ok since quote nothings gonna help unquote.

why should i bother.

right?

leaver doesn't have the right to question leavee?

2006-02-28T23:03:00.000+08:00

"Yes dzul. I'd prefer it 2 b dat way 4 nw. Dspite watever, im stil n0t ok. N0t yet. Heh."

"Wat sheesh? Kenape tanye if ure n0t g0na undrstand it anywae."

"Juz hang ah. Y ru askng me? We all dun hang out alot anywae. Juz me banu lyn ady m0z of d tme."

"Dzul y ru askng me all dis? Do u reali xpct me 2 b ok?! N0ting is g0na help.. Y wil dis be any difft."

okay all systems are a go.

Happy for you

2006-02-28T12:42:00.000+08:00

i'm happy to hear the good news.

tak sia sia kao tunggu.

The Bluff

2006-02-28T10:22:00.000+08:00

the thing i wanted to tell that saturday but couldn't bring myself to.

Good Apollo

2006-02-23T19:53:00.000+08:00

Dear _____,

I know not much about love.
It is not in my make.
But if I could've,
I would've loved you.

With love,
_________

argh

2006-02-22T00:33:00.000+08:00

i feel like i'm being pussy whipped.

and the pussies that are whipping me are not even the ones that i wanna lick.

3rd accident

2006-02-21T13:43:00.000+08:00

damn. i think. i think. ambellina secretly went up my house, into my room and read my previous post.

cause she sure as hell hates me now.

to the point where she threw me off of her.

buying a gilera

2006-02-18T09:58:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry ambellina but your betrayal is forcing me to look for chase.

counting down to 2a

2006-02-15T02:18:00.000+08:00

25 days to tango.

and ill be 'big brother'

valentine's day

2006-02-15T02:09:00.000+08:00

"... 14th february is nothing special i say
why? because everyday to me is like valentine's day"

and i then i gave her mr. hairy 'rufus' alien.

backend of forever

2006-02-10T00:42:00.000+08:00

i overheard that you were unhappy too
misleading trust into a relationship that makes no sense

but you had your back turned as you faded away
at the end of my day i found out
you weren't worth what i thought of you

Co&Ca set

2006-02-10T00:17:00.000+08:00

and at long last the real ambellina will be in my possession.

come to me baby, the prise wishes you to watch over me.

Newton accident

2006-02-09T00:14:00.000+08:00

Question:
What do you get when a mercedes clips you from behind?

Answer:
You get $300.

The REAL Prizefighter Inferno

2006-02-07T10:22:00.000+08:00

Long-arm and Butchie Bleam brothers brought together by phsyical distortion and social seclusion are about to find themselves in the running for the most unusual job in the world.

Death.

Listen to the story unfold as we follow these two misunderstood yet maniacal minstrels of macabre in a neverending race for ultimate power. Listen to the disturbing details as the songs take you through the hell that is Blood Machine.

This is story being told in song.
This is hell being unleashed through love and sound.

I am the hitchhiker doomed to tell the of Magretville.

I am your guide, I am The Prize Fighter Inferno.

last a lifetime

2006-02-03T23:58:00.000+08:00

can you last a lifetime?
if i was tuesday, my answer would be "yes, definitely."

you're so fine

2006-01-31T12:59:00.000+08:00

hey baby you're so fine,
come on sugar blow my mind.

girls and boys

2006-01-30T12:43:00.000+08:00

looking for:

girls who are boys
who like boys to be girls
who do boys like they're girls
who do girls like they're boys
always should be someone you really love

do anything with her.

2006-01-30T11:16:00.000+08:00

from the aides of the plains.
to the outskirts of the south.
i truly can include you in any timetable.

honeymoon period not over

2006-01-29T10:14:00.000+08:00

the moon didn't lose its sweetness.
oh no no no.
i wouldn't let it.

the smell of sick sweat

2006-01-23T18:48:00.000+08:00

oh that sick smell.
that is so year 1.

carousel

2006-01-20T22:18:00.000+08:00

she didn't mske me ride the carousel.
will it come back to bite us in the end?

still laughing

2006-01-20T10:00:00.000+08:00

come take a look because all this could mean that i don't really care who ends up getting hurt. please take a look if its judgment vs. instinct. how do i feel when my feelings don't even work?

know that i'll be there cause i can see it in your smile.
time stood still for me when you called.
said i...

answer me this: yes all i have is questions. you can't slip away and hide behind a false truth. time takes too long just seems like i'm still standing here now and i can't even feel the rain that hits my shores. know that i'll be there cause i can see it in your eyes.

when will i get there? i should be here by now. got it all worked out.

did i see you laughing yet? funny, its not me.

in time all i want is it away? got too long and now its gone. its gone.

i'm still waiting, i still breathe. that's a sign that i'm still me.
i'm still breathing, i can see. so i must be alive for real.

what's wrong with this sentence?

2006-01-20T09:28:00.000+08:00

scientific research has shown that if your parents never had children, chances are you never will.

whats wrong?

her getting a debarment

2006-01-20T09:04:00.000+08:00

what kind of person are you?

1. you are scared shitless and will do something about it.
2. you are scared shitless but will not do anything about it.
3. you are not scared shitless but will still do something about it.
4. you are not scared shitless and will not do anything about it.

shade your answer in the otas shit provided. 2b pencil only please.

drunk again

2006-01-15T02:08:00.000+08:00

if i had a dollar bill for every time i've been wrong, i'd be a self-made millionaire and you'd still be gone. so hand me down my best dress shoes and my best dress shirt cause i'm going out in style to cover the hurt.

all i wanna do all day is spend it in bed but that's bad for the body and even worse for my head.
so i'll try and find a place where no one will ask me a thing. it'll help to forget and help me to sing.
cause now i'm drunk again. the means to my end and i'm scared of myself.
cause now it's all the same, the faces and names.
and i'm scared of myself again.

have you ever wanted to wake up from your dreaming? it scared you so bad you couldn't control your heart or your breathing. well walk out the door with me on the floor you don't care how i'm feeling.

i guess a weak and tired and frightened man is no longer appealing.

some people have a gift of reaching right into your soul and finding the hole and making it bigger. baby sometimes i think i catch you cracking cynical smiles. and in a short while you'll be my heart's grave digger.

well there's not much i can do. cause i'm at the mercy of you. ~~so baby i guess we're through.~~

if i had a dollar bill for every time i've been wrong, i'd be a self-made millionaire and i wouldn't be singing.

Missing razia

2006-01-13T23:56:00.000+08:00

i've come to realise that i indeed miss the ninth counting backwards.

garbage disposal

2006-01-11T23:38:00.000+08:00

and in my semi-subconciousness,
she's my garbage disposal.

tell her to fuck off

2006-01-11T09:12:00.000+08:00

"tell her to fuck off.
go bark up some other tree.
this boy's been pissed all over."

my leaves are getting greener.

Halaman Asmara

2006-01-10T11:15:00.000+08:00

Ziana Zain Feat. Awie

Halaman Asmara

Setahun aku lalui

Detik lama kan kembali

Pelita ku nyalakan

Di halaman asmara ini

Sering kali ku renungi

Kenangan mencuit hati

Sedar tak sedar detik itu kembali

Detik tahun lagi

Cinta di bawah cahaya

Dakapan seribu warna

Menerangi indah halaman asmara

Kita berdua

Kau melafazkan kerinduan

Ku sambut keriangan

Dan terungkaplah

Impian di hari mulia

Tercurah kasih dan sayang

Menyambut Syawal menjelma

Tapi ku gembira bertemu saudara

Bersama kasih yang ku cinta

Kau melafazkan kerinduan

Ku sambut keriangan

Dan terungkaplah

Impian

2006-01-08T09:14:00.000+08:00

you break my heart into a thousand pieces and you say its because i deserve better?

it's as good

2006-01-06T01:52:00.000+08:00

its not that.
a certain someone someone says i won't be invited to anymore outings with her in them.
judging from my past experience, she has always been there.
so it's as good as me not joining them anymore.

for

2006-01-06T01:14:00.000+08:00

for your hands will be bound.
for your legs will be tied.
for your eyes will be blind.
for you won't know what's coming next.
for you were only given a taste.
for you were already in agony.

for you can't do anything about it.
for your lips say 'no' but your heart says 'yes'.

is this goodbye?

2006-01-05T01:21:00.000+08:00

is this good bye?

MYOB

2006-01-03T22:49:00.000+08:00

then MYOB.

my hp.

2006-01-03T12:44:00.000+08:00

my phone mysteriously worked. so i'm contactable again.

psssst. i'll tell you a secret: talking to your things really does work.

no life.

2006-01-03T12:43:00.000+08:00

i'm not allowed to have a life after it?

little miss nosey

2006-01-03T12:42:00.000+08:00

little miss nosey's in the house yall.

SICK?

2006-01-01T22:45:00.000+08:00

DO YOU FEEL SICK WHEN YOU READ IT??!!

out of order

2006-01-01T21:44:00.000+08:00

i was sitting in the hot spa when i saw something shining from under the water.

it was my handphone.

i'm out of order till further notice.

those of you who know, will know how to contact me.

peace outside.

FUN

2006-01-01T21:41:00.000+08:00

its actually fun what people have to say about me.
come on.
hate me.
i don't care.
who are you to me anyway?

this is fun, you read right:

FUN

expensive taste

2006-01-01T21:38:00.000+08:00

my family has expensive taste. not that i'm complaining. wahaha.

damn, we should have shifted into that two-in-one-semi-detached house.

helping you

2005-12-31T15:49:00.000+08:00

let me help you.
you forced me to do this.

your number will be gone.
your msn will be gone.
your link will be gone.
your friendster will be gone.
your face in my mind will be gone.
me being in the clique will be gone.

i won't recognise you on the streets.

i don't care anymore.

no

2005-12-31T15:39:00.000+08:00

i don't think i wanna see you even when the time comes.

FIGHT

2005-12-31T10:05:00.000+08:00

funny its always just me who tries to be barney. i'm sick of trying to be barney when that kid is laughing at me.

the truth be told: i would have kept you, forever, but we had to sever. it ended for both of us, faster than a... kill off this thinking, it's starting to sink in. i'm losing control now, and without you i can finally see...

Fight

now go run away. save yourself from me. the tables has been reversed. i still don't get it why there's still this certain membrane that you're still keeping. lick it and eat it like a calf and you'll be nutritionised (?).

i still remember what they said.

"you hurt one, you hurt three."

but it seems number three doesn't care. number two is dear to me.

and i think you misunderstood. i mislead you. or at least i think so. haha.

opinion

2005-12-30T23:44:00.000+08:00

i need an opinion.

which bike makes my crotch look bigger? (in other words which one looks hotter?)

Exhibit A

Motard

Exhibit B

Scrambled eggs

so vote away at my tagboard. thank you.

foreveryouwill

2005-12-30T02:57:00.000+08:00

foreveryouwill. hope.

whisper sweet nothings.

the way your teeth disobeys.
the way your eyes see.
the way your laugh responds.
the way your hair agrees.
the way your breathe ventilates.
the way your voice softens.

the way your...
i see black dots...

weird things

2005-12-30T02:30:00.000+08:00

things weird about me (well, so far i can only think of 2)

1. i have this 'phobia' with bars of soap. liquid soap for me please.
2. i'll just puke when i drink tap water and plain water at room temperature.

surprise package

2005-12-29T03:22:00.000+08:00

i'm a surprise-package.

in more ways than one.

look out

2005-12-27T08:55:00.000+08:00

look out the window.

the sky is, well, sky-blue.

fast or die

2005-12-26T11:42:00.000+08:00

fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die fast or die

fast or die

There's no 'I' in team

2005-12-24T14:30:00.000+08:00

Well I can't regret, can't you just forget it? I started something I couldn't finish. And if we go down, we go down together. Best friends means, well best friends means...

And I've got a twenty-dollar bill that says you're up late night starting fist fights versus fences in your backyard. Wearing your black eye like a badge of honor. Soaking in sympathy from friends who never loved you nearly half as much as me.

Broken down in bars and bathrooms. All I did was what I had to, don't believe me when I tell you: "It's just what anyone would do".

Take the time to talk about it, think a lot and live without it. Don't believe me when I tell you:
"It's something unforgivable."

Well I can't regret, can't you just forget it? I started something I couldn't finish. If we go down, we go down together. Best friends means, well best friends means...

You never knew (well I never told you), everything I know about breaking hearts, I learnt from you, it's true. I've never done it with the style and grace you have. But I've made long term plans based on these mistakes.

Is this what you call tact?
I swear you're as subtle as a brick in the small of my back
So let's end this call and end this conversation
There's nothing worse

That's right he said, that's right he said it

Have another drink and drive yourself home
I swear, you have no idea

I hope there's ice on all the roads
The jealousy that became me thinking

That's right he said

And you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt and again when your head goes through the windshield

That you always had it way too easy

Best friends means I pulled the trigger. Best friends means you get what you deserve.

Final cut

2005-12-21T01:55:00.000+08:00

this is no beginning. this is the final cut.

FUCK YOU

2005-12-20T15:28:00.000+08:00

I fucken hate it when people control what I wear. Are you ashamed of me? And now I have only a fucken pair of jeans. ONE FUCKEN PAIR! What do i wear when i wash it? Do you know how fucken sickening it is to wear the same pair over and over again? How about some money? No? No money? AM I SUPPOSE TO FUCKEN WEAR THE SAME PAIR TILL IT TEARS TOO? OH WOW THEN I WON'T HAVE ANY MORE JEANS. Oooooo if its dirty or torn sell it to the fucken karang guni man. AND HOW MANY FUCKEN CENTS WILL I GET FOR THAT?!

Why can't I get to do what I want for once. I give you good grades. I never go to overseas trips when you didn't want me to. NO FUCKEN QUESTIONS ASKED. And you wouldn't even let me wear what I fucken want.

WHO ARE YOU FUCKEN ASHAMED OF? YOU DON'T EVEN LEAVE THE FUCKEN HOUSE FOR FUCK'S SAKE. YOU KNOW WHAT MUM? I FEEL LIKE SAYING ONE BIG PHAT 'FUCK YOU' RIGHT AT YOUR FACE.

alright i've vented my anger.

What you will

2005-12-20T11:30:00.000+08:00

Call me a coward. Bring out the pom poms and cheer me on.

Did I bother telling you this? With the words that cross this and jump lips.

In the phrase to cut these lips: I love you.

Ambellina hurt again

2005-12-20T11:27:00.000+08:00

Ambellina is hurt again.

We Had It

2005-12-18T13:32:00.000+08:00

Repeat yourself, my hands are shaking
A thousand questions left unanswered
I'll serenade before I do
Candles burn without a flame on
My final call to you, I know you're listening
I stood beside the wood that held you
I must sit down, my legs are shaking
With gifts of plectrums for your journey
And melodies to help you on your way
You had it, I had it. Ambellina lost it.

nice~

2005-12-16T04:29:00.000+08:00

presentation is roughly in about 7 hours.

been only sleeping for 2 hours everyday.

that 3 hour nap might make a difference.

no motivation for school.

ambellina is the only one that loves me now.

no one loves ambellina more than me.
"by the way, i'll get you fixed and get you a new mudguard, rear plate, handlebar."

and last but never least to me.
still don't know. i don't know what's going on in there. i'll wait.

neutral gear

2005-12-15T02:44:00.000+08:00

you're gearbox seems to be malfunctioning.

you're stuck in neutral gear and holding up traffic.

that's not the way

2005-12-15T02:32:00.000+08:00

she deleted my images and ours. pardon my bad english cause i don't care. that is not the way you do it. going cold turkey isn't the solution.

but then again, how else will it ever happen. getting on top of a person isn't easy. especially when i'm tall.

i'll settle for this

2005-12-11T21:17:00.000+08:00

i don't care anymore. it's so hard finding a skin that is male-ish.

i'll settle for this.

say what you want.

i found the template. nice and simple. i think i'll use this address from now on.

then again, i always say that for every new blog i make.

what's new?